Here, Without You

[soulfir3]

Eyes cry tears of red,
my soul bleeds
a grey haze has covered my world
and my mind is left in a whirl
fingers strike bone
as the knife I hold strikes clean
flesh bared open,
striking nerve to feel myself breathe
dying in the shadows
cold damp takes over my body
I wish to melt into nothing
eyes cry tears of red
for your life,
I have allowed myself open
and now I lay lifeless,
of conscious thoughts, I am bled

I wish for just once more
to see your smile
hold you close
and call you mine,
but this is not so
my life has shattered open
I lay in pain, broken
dreams come in fitful shows
would it be better
if I found the gas to my own chamber ?
drowning without you
angry for doubting
that this would be different,
tomorrow would come
I ache now
for eternal slumber

[anirbas]

haunting poeming...emotive intimism twisted to it's finest point...
evoked the angst riddled need and search for peace of mind...
another dark gem, S'fir...thanks for sharing...Nir.

[soulfir3]

Written in the aftermath of my marriage breaking down, when I discovered that my abusive partner had also been hugely unfaithful too me. It is part of my releasing of all the anger and upset. Thank you for your comments and support.

x Soul