With This Needle..

[soulfir3]

i

I inscribed your own desires,
upon my heart..
A beating need, something new
a fresh start..
I held the dagger, mere inches
from my existence
A pulse, so faint..
you could barely feel
Warm blood, running over fingertips
icey blue, with cold
A kiss, from your lips
that left me remorseful..
And still, recoiling
unconditional promises..
Of the darkness, I have not yet seen
with needle and thread of life
Interwoven finely
sinew too bone, too flesh
A throb of vein..
where you have sunk
Your tattoo of dominance
a life taken, someone else
Too whom, I now belong
with feathers torn and soul
Tattered, a shadow
looms, in unspoken stutter..
Almost.. perhaps
an unfulfilled dream
Of nightmare substance

[soulfir3]

ii
I have sewn a mark
recognisable only by one other,
into the deepest folds of myself
where only eyes, which see
more than there is too be seen
can reach.. view and become one
with the being..
spirit and soul ~
cry with disturbance and insecurity..
a question, without an answer
and an answer..
without a question

I have dipped the finest point,
sharpening it too a sheer edge
and embedded itself into vein
the pain is instant,
but unyielding..
drawing rich red blood, spilling
over the translucent white of skin..
until pallour is drawn into ashen tones
and it is the ebony sky of night..
that beckons me into
a temporary state of calm

[Sam]

Again! You have me holding my breath!

Sam

[soulfir3]

iii

~ bitter heart ~

there is nothing you have, that I want

so don't offer me your false hope and praise

there is nothing you can say, that will change the past

so don't offer me your lies and pretense of care

there is nothing, that you could do, that will erase the hurt

so don't think, that you can merely say " i'm sorry " and it will wipe it away

~.~

i want nothing from you and expect even less.

dont pretend to care, when my world is falling apart
and nothing appears to be as it should be,
simply so you can get.. whatever it is you're after.

i'm sick of the lies and excuses. it's time to move on.

let me go. i'm tired of you

[lilly]

awsome captivating i can relate to these works in a powerful way so many ways to interpurt the pain i wish i could make it go away kiss those beautiful tears away forever but i cant but know iim here to hold you close n endere soul sister know this it s you i think of beyond the midst i never lie to i never will i will always be here one way or another and our kinship will last forever love lilly
awsome writing babe