Dry Tears

[lilly]

Anger rises from my soul

How could you leave your children

Alone no father now and forever more

I'm so angry that you forgot about being a dad

I hate that you wont care when they are sad

Overwhelmed with future responsibilities


How will i cope when they ask, wheres my daddy

Why did he leave me, they'll ask

You left your girls without a care

My thoughts are scared , no emotions have been spared

Did you question how your death might affect their very lives

I cant help but be devastated at the future you left your children

How am i to cope financially i ask you left nothing but pain

I pray and will everyday that i can provide for their needs alone

Worry consumes my racing thoughts

World keeps spinning out of control

Nightmares of how you died haunt me

No decent sleep, too scared too close my eyes watch your demise

Whispers beyond the grave

I'm sorry your soul i could not save

Drugs changed you completely finally ending your short life

Lies and betrayal no longer hide

Truth hurts but maybe its the way it supposed to be

I cant say why,i don't want to believe parenting it now all up too me

A gift in a way i suppose you have secretly handed me

The gift of raising two beautiful girls in a way that'd make you proud

For at least i think maybe you trusted my parenting abilities

Did you forget once they were born that life wasn't solely about you

Comfort in the fact that i hope you found eternal peace

I prayed in a chapel today to find forgiveness towards you

Maybe one day but i know it's not today

I ask for guidance to raise the two beautiful daughters i call my own

All Alone,,,,,

[anirbas]

I'm speechless, Lilly...That doesn't happen, often...Hauntingly, tauntingly mournfully
beautiful poeming...Has the grit and glam of reality flaring through it like the light
of the Hagga lamp, lighting the darkness, ahead of it...Hail and welcome
to the poetical herd and many hallways you'll find in here...Nir

[lilly]

Nir, i am honoured by your response thank you you wrapped up about all the feelings well most i am experienceing right now and thank you for the welcome
lilly

[dawness]

such paradox of parental love.... i dig this, dig this gem, lills!

[soulfir3]

Lilly, there's nothing I can say, which hasn't been said between you and I before.
I'm so sorry that things ended as they did and the betrayal you feel, as a result of his own misguidance... how ever long it went on , before - during and well after the relationship and gorgeous children you had together.

Never are you alone. Never will you be. I love you and this poem is wonderfully written.

If I could, I would carve a piece of my heart, for you to carry, so that you know I am always here for you.

xxx Soul

[brandnewmessiah]

The fear is evident in this Lilly, but there is a strength hidden inside it also. Time heals all wounds they say maybe it will for you. Sincerely ~ BNM

[lilly]

dawness thank you parental love is what keeps me going no doubt just a pity for my children they ionly now have me but maybe that was lifes cruel plan we will never know these sort of questions
thank you for the reponse take care Lilly

[lilly]

Dear Soul
thank you ever so much for your kind words i dont need a piece of your heart for you are a part of me , i fear the future i dread the past but i look onwards scared but determined t make a good life for my children i love you always Lillian xxxx

[lilly]

BNM thank you again for your support fear yes strentgh well im working very very hard at it but with time lots of it maybe i will be the ideal mother n parent these beautiful children need i am here for now of course but always striive to be better always life is cruel but it all happens for a reason
with help from my friends i will muster the strentgh u all see in me for i am blid to it write now
Lillian xxx

[DavidMc]

Speechless.

David