She Had Guts

[anirbas]

*inspired by a scene in some detective type show
I watched the other evening*



When the time came...Her time...
The girl taunted, tortured, then left behind...
She didn't run in screaming circles, like a caged animal scenting
it's all to soon to come, skin popping, soul searing death...

She simply let go the bars that entrapped her...
Turned with great dignity and walked quietly into the fire...
Her captors had implied she was a fat ass...Full of guts...
Deserving of their sneers, jeers and crass gestures...

Turned out, they were right about one thing...She had guts...

[anna]

Was that the one where her last words were to ask her boyfriend to take care of her father? If it was, the only problem I had with it was that they didn't punish enough people. They should have force fed every one of the bystanders until they weighed 400 lbs. and then let them back into society!

[anirbas]

Bingo! On the money your are, lady! Cold Case, as a matter of fact. Don't watch much regular television programming, but this program, and the original CSI and NCIS, I do like to watch when I can remember they are on...LOL...

It was sad as heck, this Cold Case storyline, yes? I was crying by the end and mini-me was giggling at me, little rascal. I freaked out when it became apparent whom actually started the fire...One of the other "fat" girls...Great twist of irony the storywriters twisted into the piece...

I like to make the joke, I've been four women in my lifetime, and I've got the wardrobe to prove it...S, M, L and XL...LOL...I'm a borderline M, at this point in my life...

Some of my dearest friends are pushing the 400 lb., mark. I've been in public with these beautiful people and seen up close and personal, indirectly of course-- some of the shit they have to put up with from an ignorant, narrow minded society.

From a health standpoint, my friends worry me though...But, I can't knock their choices...
As until recently I was a heavy smoker for the past four years, after quitting for five years.
And that's not a healthy choice to make, either...I'm still battling with that nasty demonic bastard monkey...LOL...

But, I think, I feel, I hope I'm two-thirds of the way to pitching that nicotinically scented little bugger off my back...[crosses fingers]...for good and ever...[crosses self]...

Thanks for reading this piece, Anna. Human issues strike chords in me, whether real
or fictitious, as in the case of this episode of Cold Case.

Sabrina.

[anna]

I know what you mean by having been many women in one lifetime. I've been size 10 to 22 and back more times than I can remember. No damn wonder I have such self-esteem issues!lol I really don't know who I am!!!! If I really love being thin, why do I let myself get unthin so often? Hummmmm. Just nuts, I guess.
Anna

[soulfir3]

powerful writing . I love it when you get my mind turning in this ever delicious way!!
Having battled the larger sized selections in life, for the last few years it was with great appreciation, when I not only dropped several dress sizes, but also just shy of 35 kilos this past year, and I too have seen the judgement and insults hurled not only to myself but also others in this bitter trap. What always shocked me, was that those at the controlling point of abuse, were those in similiar predicaments to myself and others.

What is that famous saying ? Those in glass houses....

[anirbas]

Thanks, Soul! And giggling at the mind turning sentence, as I seem to have a knack for turning minds, i.e., creating controversy these days, LOL...

I so hear what the both of you ladies, are saying. I've worn 6's at my smallest and 18-20, XL, at my most zaftig state of being. Most of my weight gains have been due to pregnancies, yeppers, that gets us all if we are female...ggglgggl...Twice, I gained weight without being pregnant--when I first left home and discovered food...Food we hadn't had at home...The second time, I gained weight when I quit smoking for five years.

Never really got big enough to get any shit from society, but, it seems to have given the so called men in my life at various times, the willies, I didn't stay the same as when they met me.

I don't really care what size I am, as long as I feel good, and my favorite size to be is borderline M...LOL...It's funny to me, men can get fat and we are supposed to accept it...But, if we gain a pound, you'd think it was their body you gained it on...Most men...I know not all men are like that...

And yes, Soul...You're so right...It's most shocking when people who are overweight themselves point out your own weight gain...Or "need" in their opinion to lose weight...

Anyway, appreciate you guys taking the time to read this piece and comment.
Thanks a million, girls! Sabrina.