Five Words Thread

[phantasm]

trust, faith, love, steadfast, true

What's simple is true.
Who do you trust and what do you trust?
Love and trust walk hand-in-hand in this life.
True, you can trust someone you don't love, but that trust only goes so far.
But--- can you truly love someone you don't trust?

Love is more than just affection for someone you've known a long time.
Love runs much deeper. It's genuine appreciation and acceptance of a person's innate qualities.

This fact is steadfast: this world needs a lot more love in it than any other quality.
Do we truly feel free to be honest with each other?
Do you have faith in that person, and what does that mean to you?

Does our world truly understand what it means to truly love someone?
Where in our world has trust not been violated?


creativity*imagination*off-the-wall*crayons*paint

[aims]

creativity*imagination*off-the-wall*crayons*paint
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Off-the-wall,
that's me
and my declarations of Love for her
they rebound from there
it is only in my imagination
that she knows my love for her
and only there have i hope of being loved by her.
but these feelings do pervade my life subtly
they infuse my creativity
they color my inspiration
like crayons that refuse to stay inside the lines,
they paint my heart blood red for love and blue
for my aloneness in it.
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sense, inclination, falter, ingenuity, stoic

written in 4:30 seconds

[aims]

sense, inclination, falter, ingenuity, stoic
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Rarely do I falter in my ingeniuty
it's like a sense
it's like seeing hearing
it's like breathing
it comes naturally
but the one time when it might go off the rails is in the face of
intense or extreme emotions,
even that of joy
because stoicism is not my inclination
no rather my heart rules the roost.
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tapestry, killswitch, prudent, appetite, complication

written in 4 minutes 30 seconds

[phantasm]

sense, inclination, falter, ingenuity, stoic


Stoically I face my greatest challenge.

Will I really get to where I'm going? How long will it take to get there? Or will I falter?
Will I understand my destination when I arrive, or will I look around uncomprehending?

I want to cultivate my ingenuity. I am thankful for my creativity. I am thankful for the life I have.
I know I'm going somewhere. I just can't quite see where. My senses are not well-trained enough.
My inclinations lead me down the road I've always traveled. Will I find a tavern where I can refresh my soul?

Still, I am grateful for all that has been given me by grace.

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heaven-ward*skyscraper*exalted*dangerous*freedom

[aims]

heaven-ward*skyscraper*exalted*dangerous*freedom
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My heart is exalted
it is soaring heavenward
watch it blow by the top of the skyscraper
dance with the clouds
such joy is almost dangerous
but not as dangerous
as the fear it grants freedom from.
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confession, absolution, truth, garden, trust

written in 2minutes 53 seconds

[aims]

confession, absolution, truth, garden, trust
tapestry, killswitch, prudent, appetite, complication
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For my confession
there is no absolution
the truth
it just is
but whether it just is a friend
or something that will drag you down a dark alley to heartache
is a question
whose answer changes
from moment to moment
and from one set of circumstance to another.
Trust is a good healthy and beautiful thing
when it is esteemed
when all parties concerned value it,
but it can be misplaced and worse still sometimes
it is not the relavent criteria in a situation.
Humanity has long ago left the garden of innocence
and the world the tapestry of life depicts
is more crude
rough
harsh
sharp
and unforgiving
than it was back then!
I have to think whether it is prudent to share
certain information with certain people
because of the complications that can arise as a result!
Some appetites must be supressed
sometimes the heart starved,
because the killswitch for emotional cravings
cannot be found.
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calculate, sing, swoon, soon, harpoon

9 minutes 45 seconds

[aims]

calculate, sing, swoon, soon, harpoon
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Sing your love in silence my heart
swoon with poker face
calculate the risks
sometimes we are most afraid of those we love the most
because they have the ability to hurt us more than others do.
You have to think,
If I take my chances
and speak my heart
how soon
the harpoon
will deflate it
and so I debate it
and in the end
safe loneliness wins.
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eat, drink, rejoice, lament, tangible

5 minutes 12 seconds

[phantasm]

eat, drink, rejoice, lament, tangible

We all need something tangible to hold on to,
Something physical and real that grounds us in our experience of life.
We all need something that gives us permission to eat, drink, and rejoice
Maybe it doesn't matter what that something is, so long as it doesn't harm our fellow humans.
All anyone wants is to feel secure, to be known and understood.
In some ways, the human creature isn't that complicated.
Capitalism struck gold when it came across this truth-- the human race is united in its' appetites.

See to everyone's needs and we'll create a more peaceful world-- is that all it takes?
That world is coming down the pike. It is only a matter of time. We have most of the materials to make it.
What we don't have yet we can always invent.

May we find a way to assassinate lament and give peace of mind to every single person on Earth.



egg nog*candles*sweater*Christmas carols*snow

[aims]

egg nog*candles*sweater*Christmas carols*snow
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Light the candles
and the fire
long ago
you lit my desire
pour some egg nog
pull on a sweater
put on Christmas carols
curl up with me on the couch
and let me just hold you there
my outward peace belies
the exploding joy in my heart
my Christmas wish fullfilled.
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tear, bear, bare, declare, chime

stopwatch: 4:49

[aims]

tear, bear, bare, declare, chime
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I can't let a tear fall because of my feelings for you
because it would bear my aching bare heart all too well
like a wind chime in a hailstorm.
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solidarity, squeal, trip, cost, liken

[aims]

solidarity, squeal, trip, cost, liken
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This trip on planet earth
has cost me much. . .
in tears
in aching heart moments
and although it has been light
on it's demands for my delighted squeals
I still seem to be short of them
I liken it to the magic frog
another coin only appears in it's mouth when the previous has been spent.
I guess I should try harder at times
to see God's solidarity with humanity's heart
in the total rejection Jesus endured at the hand of fellow humans,
but sometimes that comfort seems too remote from my experience
when loneliness and heartache batter my soul.
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stream, cataclysm, green, cry, try

[aims]

stream, cataclysm, green, cry, try
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If I could playback my entire stream of consciousness
in this life
it would have plenty of green days
green dreams
both happy
and horrified screams
the same with the tears I cry
some of joy
some of anguished "WHY"
days where I gave up or in
days when I try.
Days of cataclysm
days of catechism
days of epiphany
days of antipathy.
The sum of my life is a mixed bag!
and now I can laugh about it as an old hag!!!
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costume, drag, crag, festive, chronological

[phantasm]

costume, drag, crag, festive, chronological

The festivities are long gone, The wrapping paper incinerated in a crag
How many seconds have ticked by since the start of Christmas last year?
What if we could experience the holiday season in reverse chronological order?
Would you do it if you could? Would you put on a Santa costume in reverse?
If you had to do this past Christmas season all over again, would you love to, or would it be a drag?


glass*flesh*snow*feathers*indelible ink

[aims]

glass*flesh*snow*feathers*indelible ink
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When I gaze upon my flesh
in the looking glass
I wish I could strikethrough
with indelible ink
everything between my neck and my legs
because it looks better with clothes on
and hideous without
maybe an application of tar and feathers is in order
for my torso!!
or insert visible white noise. . . snow!!
don't cha know!!!
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cuddle, sexy, kiss, adore, obey

[aims]

cuddle, sexy, kiss, adore, obey
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I cannot obey my heart
because it wants what I cannot have.
Still,
I do not think I can comply with my
more reasonable mind,
in like kind,
it tells me to cuddle kiss and adore
someone to whom my heart will not open the door,
in other words it tells me
to choose to love someone who will want me,
but feelings are not that simple
and do not comply with reason, with sense!
If my heart does not scream "Love"
and my body does not respond with "Sexy"
then no amout of coercion from the practical mind
can create,
can cause those responses to exist within me toward
someone who does not naturally inspire them.
and I really cannot fake it,
I wasn't even good at that when I drank,
so much less so now!
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solid, inspiring, credible, flicker, lull

[aims]

solid, inspiring, credible, flicker, lull
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I'm a high scorer on the pathetic meter
when My consistent poor luck at love
can lull me into a false sense of security
I think, . . . from the pointy shards of unrequited love
that pierce my heart at the bottom of the gorge
of heartache,
what more emotional pain could await me,
it is at that precise moment
something will flicker to life in the universe
in response to my foolish challenge,
inspiring life to find solid and credible
argument,
in the form of unprovoked rejection, . . .
and so I dare not be so cocky,
that I am safe in my misery.
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satisfy, collude, insignificant, cry, pessimist

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satisfy, collude, insignificant, cry, pessimist

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"You know, I think you're a pretty cool dude," 
said the guy who had heard me out.
"I think you and me, I think we should collude,
And take those motherf**kers out." 

"But why," said I, "would we need to do that?
I'd rather just stay away. 
In a few years they'll be insignificant rats- 
Just a memory of a bad day."

"Listen, my friend, I know their type. 
They'll never leave you alone. 
What you need to do is pick while it's ripe,"
he said, as his black eye shone. 

"Look where that got you," I retorted and scoffed,
"'Kick them until they cry...' 
They ended up kicking you!" Embarrassed, he coughed. 
"You're lucky you didn't die."

"Oh, pessimist, please, that was just one time!
Besides, we only just met. 
You've no idea how I could help you-! But fine.
If you don't want my help, good luck on your own." 

"Thanks for the offer anyway," I said. "And good luck with that eye!"

"Thanks; have a good night."

"I'm sure we'll both be just fine."

And, satisfied with that, we broke rhythm and rhyme, and each went our separate ways. 


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Hate, shy, green, exacerbate, fire

[aims]

Hate, shy, green, exacerbate, fire
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I hate how shy I get when I see her
you'd think, knowing she's never going to love me anyway,
I could just relax and be myself!!
When I think about the people she does love,
and I mean any kind of love (desperately wish I was one of them)
I am green with envy!! I don't begrudge them
don't wish to own all of her attention,
just wish I could count myself among them!
It just exacerbates the aching longing inside of me,
just recalling in my mind that face I would never get tired of looking at,
sets my heart and indeed my body on fire.
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red, hot, sex, intimacy, emotional

[aims]

red, hot, sex, intimacy, emotional
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I'm gonna start looking for RED HOT SEX!
Emotional intimacy . . . maybe it's over-rated
well at any rate it seems to be not in the cards for me
not with the one I want and can't go there with anyone else,
haven't gotten much of it in my 58 years
sucky luck at love so . . .
I'm gonna look at it this way,
I'm still here,
I'm turning 58 on Saturday,
so I guess I don't need it to live,
since,
I'm not going have a love life
I'm going to choose to think it's over-rated!!!
and try to have a sex life instead.
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best, decision, ever, pagan, miracle

[aims]

best, decision, ever, pagan, miracle
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Be it miracle or magic. . .
is all in the point of view
whether a wish willed to life
orchestrated by a hand waving a wand
or a prayer bestowed on a humble head. . .
from the foot of a cross,
What one believed,
one recieved,
and that is life at it's best.
Whether Christian, Buddhist, or Pagan,
we are ever after comfort, security,
whatever makes us feel that we are not hopelessly adrift
and at the mercy of random chaos, will win the decision in the end.
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cost, tick, claustrophobic, hanging, delectable

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cost, tick, claustrophobic, hanging, delectable

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The clock is going tickety-tock and I'm still lying here
Staring up at the ceiling above my head
As I notice a spot, and start thinking, Oh dear...
There's a spider hanging upon a thread!

The wall's closing in, I have to get up 
But god, I feel so claustrophobic 
This room's much too tiny; Oh god, don't look up-!
I'm such an arachnophobic! 

Maybe if I could just get over it 
And taste that delectable peace
Then I wouldn't be so scared of it
When I come face to face with a beast.

Just get away from me! Shoo!
Just leave me alone...
Instinctively, I grab a shoe
And crush it! She's a goner!
And now that it's done
I must say I feel a lot better.

Still, I am shaken right down to my core
Well, I guess that's the cost to be rash.
I pretended to be brave, and now give an encore- 
and toss that shoe straight in the trash.


(it should be noted that I am not afraid of spiders, but just wanted to make a fun little story with the words- in reality, I find spiders quite fascinating and do not have a problem with them as long as it's doing no harm.)


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Sensitivity, loss, noise, shaken, odd

[aims]

Sensitivity, loss, noise, shaken, odd
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Sensitivity,
I have it,
even especially regarding the woman I wish I did not adore so
I know,
a light has gone out
I know,
there is pain,
loss.
I know,
it seems at odds for me to even think of myself,
my wants,
my despair at the hopelessness of ever having her love!
That I even seek to make this soundless noise
about my own feelings,
and how that might lead one to the erroneous conclusion
that I do not care enough what she is going through,
but it isn't true,
I do care!
I, if I had my way in this world,
I would never see her sad
or lacking anything she needed or desired, even if that excluded,
me having what I want so very dearly. . . the woman, her love.
Shaken and stirred,
it isn't that simple,
I didn't just start wanting her,
I have wanted her from the very beginning
two years ago
before,
when she had not had the unfortunate meeting with tragic circumstance.
And yes from the beginning the outlook on my desires was more than bleak,
but I didn't choose these feelings,
I did however choose what to do about them. . .
nothing,
to suffer in silence,
rather than throw my own life into peril,
and create discomfort for her in my presence,
I took the high road,
I prayed faithfully night after night for her happiness
for her to have all that she could want or need!
Only asking for myself
that I be granted. . .
a reprieve from the misery of wanting,
wanting at all because there is truly no one but her.
that in these later years of my life,
I might just be granted contentment
in aloneness. . .
but to no avail,
all I have received
is the wattage cranked up on my desire for her;
and this has led to a crisis of faith for me,
and a hard left in my spiritual path,
and still
I cannot help but have my last thoghts of each day be,
a plea to the powers that be in the universe to bless
her with all that she could need or want. . .
all that will never include me.
So, yes
I feel sorry for me,
but I still want only good things for her.
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dare, clarity, submerge, beautiful, perservere

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that was a nice poem, aims! i guess you could say you inspired me to talk about my own issues 


dare, clarity, submerge, beautiful, perservere 

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I used to lie in bed at night, 
thinking about all we could be.
I could meet him and he could meet me,
And then everything would be alright.

But things started changing when I got more submerged
Into the feeling, into the urge
I wanted him, I wanted him now!
I wanted to be with him, to escape my cage
To shatter my old life, be with him instead

I let it take a hold on me, I was caught in its grip
The grip of obsession made me bitter and weak
When I told him about it, he just stared in shock
Couldn't believe I had fallen this far
"This couldn't be healthy! Are you alright in the head!
It sounds like without me you'd rather be dead!"

And what if that's true? 


We tried going back to normal and it worked for a time
But after a while, he grew more and more quiet
Until at last, he was gone far away
And I thought that maybe I had made a mistake
That his leaving was my fault, and my fault alone
That I'd have to carry this burden alone.

But then I thought, "No, he must be disguised
Lurking around to tell if I see through his guise
If I truly knew him, I'd find him! 
Yes, it must be a test.
I'll find where he's hiding."
And history's the rest. 


After some years and maturity grown, 
I've figured out now that I'm really alone. 
He won't come find me, he won't return
He won't talk to me and see how we've learned. 

And how do I feel?
Well, better than before 
But still I just wish that we could have been more

He clearly liked me; Of course, I liked him 
We went together like kitties and string 
Often at night we would play truth-or-dare
And always, together, our laughter filled the air.

Still to this day I yearn to reach out
Somewhere in space, to call for his name
To talk for a moment, even if just a second
Just to get closure, clarity, an end to the pain
Of not knowing why he left. 
Of not knowing why he did anything. 
Of not knowing whether what he said was really true, 
or if he was faking it just to get by. 

Despite myself, I still think about
How nice it'd have been if things had worked out. 

But it doesn't matter how hard I persevere. 
It doesn't matter how badly I want him near. 
It doesn't matter how much I long to see his beautiful face, 
because when I was young I treated it like a race.

A race against time, against all the odds
And inevitably, they all caught up anyway
Problems came crashing down, and now I just have ...
Now I just have to deal with it all.


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Fireflies, guilt, magic, starlight, dusk

[aims]

Fireflies, guilt, magic, starlight, dusk
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Fireflies,
wielding the magic of their existence
dance beneath the starlight
intermittently invisible
in the dark past dusk.
Never has a firefly
suffered a single pang of guilt,
nor a moment of worry,
neither a single regret,
such things are alien,
indeed,
unknown to them.
Yet, do we see ourselves as the lucky ones!
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cream, dream, scream, gleam, scheme

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cream, dream, scream, gleam, scheme

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Stare at the wall, step into a dream 
Think of wonderful things like cake and ice cream!
Look at how all of the dining wares gleam 
Yes, come one and come all, into my daydream. 

I promise you tricks and I promise you treats
Delectable candies, such colorful sweets
Never knew what hit 'em, that's what I always say
Find out what happens at the end of the day. 
A beautiful scheme now, to lure in the pretty
The good and the kind, the neat and the witty
Your days here are done; fall into my scheme 
And live your last moments inside of my dream.

I'll make you insane. I'll make you shiver.
I'll make you quake and I'll make you quiver
But no one will wake up and hear every scream
No one could possibly hear you.

So come one, come all! Come into my trap! 
Come pet my cute kitten, curled up in my lap! 
But don't go complain when things turn awry
It's just the way that I planned it.

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Beat, acquire, heart, desire, elephant.

[aims]

wow what a surprise the scary darkness in that one kitten I liked finding something unexpected!

Beat, acquire, heart, desire, elephant
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If you want to "beat" the "heat"
and aquire what your heart does so desire. . .
ignore the elephant in the room!
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or:

Beat, acquire, heart, desire, elephant
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I desire to feel a heart beat
thudding against me
skin to skin. . .
to acquire that scary
most intimate encounter,
I would have to lift an elephant. . .
an elephant called. . .
her sexuality is different than mine,
an elephant called. . .
her heart belongs to one that is no longer,
that will probably grow larger than life in memory.
an elephant called. . .
I just don't get that lucky!
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solitude, wares, potion, notion, criteria

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solitude, wares, potion, notion, criteria

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There are three criteria that must be met to be a good potion-seller.

One, advertise your wares. 
Because if you don't, how could anyone care?
They don't know what you're selling, they don't know who you are
So get out and tell 'em! Go on, be a star! 

The second rule is, be charismatic.
Don't live in solitude- brush up on those people skills! 
Get out of the house, try to be social! 
After all, it's a valuable tool. 

Third, but not least, don't let the bad days get you down.
I know that it's hard, but there's no eternal frown.
It'll get better! We both know it will. 
One failure just means one more new opportunity- all you gotta do is find it. 

With these three steps written down in your checklist, you should be ready to go.
Put away your dark frown, and get out there, show the world what you've got. 
You're a magnificent being, and I know you'll do well
You just have to really believe in yourself
Your talent is outstanding, I love what you do.
Your smile is gorgeous and your heart is true.
So do it for me, and do it for you- 
don't just give the world a notion- give it your all! 


♡♡♡♡♡

Suit, boot, soot, foot, wooden

[aims]

Suit, boot, soot, foot, wooden
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Flip off that boot
bare that foot
shed those clothes
slip into your birthday suit
my erection isn't wooden. . .
it's Rubber
but it'll get the job done,
that is,
if that's what you call fun?!
but I'd prefer to use my best talents,
and that's a song, unsung, by my tongue. . .
but hopefully blurted out by you,
in screams. . .
that do not arise from distress!
Yes,
my mind is dirty. . .
but not full of soot!
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roiling, boiling, toiling, foiling, oiling

[aims]

roiling, boiling, toiling, foiling, oiling
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Seeing her gets me all churned up
roiling emotions
boiling sex drive
oiling my slide
into a submissive posture
I would do anything
beg for this woman
if it would get me what I want. . .
her intimate,
naked,
wide open,
vulnerable,
and me
with my tongue happily toiling
foiling any plans,
forged in fear,
to take flight,
to retreat to comfort zone
where the absence of risk
confines one to solitary.
So I guess it's a good?? thing I hardly ever see her!
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itch, scratch, slather, blather, acquire

[anirbas]

Oh, my stars!!! Excellent work, ladies!
It's been a minute since I've read
much less played here!