Eulogy

[anirbas]

It is with great sorrow and a heavy heart that I feel compelled to tell you, we have lost a voice in our community. Many of us knew her as Misharae Whitenwolf, from our Bnet days. Which is where I met her in 2004. When David and I opened this site in 2006, she was one of the handful that came here with us from Bnet. Here, she wrote under the moniker, Wistfuldragon. She was my first honest and true internet friendship and I personally will never forget her or her unique work. We developed a very close relationship far beyond the word dancing we did, together in story poems. For years, we phoned each other on a regular basis and dreamed of one day, either one or the both of us having the extra money to travel to meet each other, in "real time". She was and is, my sister of the quill and the litter sibling of my soul. Sadly, illness overtook my dear, sweet, talented Mishie a few years back. Which is why we didn't see her around her as much as we had. September 2nd, Mishie laid down her sword and shield and left this dimension, like a warrior, alone.

Misharae has left behind a compelling amount of work, here. Going forward, in memorial I shall be bumping various bits of her work up "the charts". She not only excelled on the Dark board and the Fantasy board, she wrote many lovely romantic pieces, as well. She was my hero and inspiration. I couldn't write romantic poems, until Mishie taught me a formula I could use, even if I felt I'd never really experienced it to the extent I could write of it. She said in her smokey, deep, beautiful voice over the phone, "Nir, it doesn't matter if you've never felt it. Just imagine it. Then write that down." It worked. It was through reading Misharae's lovely poetical epicals back in our Bnet days, that I was inspired to write one of my own. Without Mishie, The Dragon Hunter, would never have been written. It was written as much for her as me, as we both loved dragons, chainmail and swords, oh, my!!!


~*~

Your body finally at peace
May your soul now rest
sweet sister of the quill
in solace and dreamtime

Mishaerae Whitenwolf
aka Michelle White
May 13th, 1970
to September 2nd, 2014

[aims]

so very sorry for your loss Sabrina,
I do remember her @ bnet
will look for her pieces as you bump them up
RIP!!

[anirbas]

Thank you, Amy. I knew you would remember her. I can't attend her funeral, so, a memorial here and on my Facebook page is the most I can do. Her soul shed such a glorious light though she was mantled in darkness. I loved and love her. I will never ever forget my Mishie.

[anirbas]

The last day you favored us with your grace,
I wonder, what you experienced then?
Were you warm, hot, cold? Or indifferent?

Did you hear children laughing as they dashed
past you on your bench? Followed by mothers?
When was the last time you had a good meal?

Did you get to smoke a few cigarettes?
Dragon, I know how much you loved to smoke.
What was the last thing you laid eyes upon?

Could you see the sun rising, or falling?
Or were scatter shot stars glittering brightly?
While the moon ascended her rightful throne.

As you watched, awed and enthralled, near death.
Did you feel defeated, or like you'd won?
In taking your last breath on that hard bench.

It bothers me greatly you died alone.
(Yet, so like you, a warrior to the end.)
Alone, as I am now that you have gone.

[firestarfairy]

As always Sabrina you honor my sister that I am grateful for. thank you.

[anirbas]

We honored each other, sweet Star. We've always been each others poetical heroes since 2004. I am bereft knowing she is gone. Although, I knew after our last few conversations and especially the last one, she would go before me. I just thought we had more time to coordinate our "real time" meeting. As lost as I feel, I can only imagine how you, her babies and the family are dealing. I know she had demons, as she said, Star. Didn't matter. She was and is a phenomenal woman and one of the finest human beings I ever met in all my days. Not to mention, a fabulous poet and storyteller. I feel so blessed that so much of her work is here. So much more in the Bnet archives.

[firestarfairy]

Sabrina she was an amazing woman. As all of us have things we battle hers don't define who or what she did here in this life. She is and always will be my inspiration.

[anirbas]

Exactly. That's what I always used to tell her. How amazing she truly was. I don't think she understood that. I still can't believe we are even having this conversation. Mishie and I touched base not long ago. Talked for hours about everything like we always do when it's been awhile. Heck, what am I saying? We talked for hours on end, even when we were talking several times a week for so long. LoL But, a few years back, she kind of disappeared on me. And Facebook was where we found each other, again. Of all places. Hehehe. As much as I miss her, it's nothing compared to what you and her children miss her. Y'all had her, your whole lives. I only had her ten years. But, they are ten years, I am thankful as her friend, to have had.