I Can't Do It

[aims]

I may talk a good game about meeting other women and possibly there's a somebody gay that works in my apartment building office and lives in my apartment complex. I would like to get closer to him, I thought about asking him if he knows any single older women, but the truth of the matter is I can't stomach the idea of being with anybody but her, I haven't even been with her, but she's the only one I want that way. So I think I just rather be by myself

[anirbas]

In the beginning, a crush feels luscious.
A secret no one knows but yourself.
As time goes on and on and on...

Then, you begin to understand
why it's called a crush
instead of a pillow
or a blanket
or such...

As the crush smashes you
flat as dirty hair
leaving you lifeless
without shine

I have been crushed.
Most of us have.
My heart breaks
for you.

(((((Amy)))))

[aims]

Thanks! I'm ok, I just. . . when I try to look around and try to think of the other women in the world around me that I see, that way, it just kind turns my stomach, doesn't set well I end up thinking naw, I don't thionk so!