The "Good" Shepherd

[aims]

Two things are dead to me
hence-forward
Romantic Love
and
GOD!
This is me,
taking care of
ME!
The supposed "GOOD" shepherd
was not good
to me
he threw me to the wolves
and walked away,
He did not!
take care of me!
did not take care of my heart.
So I shall be taking care of me
from now on.
I will be less emotionally vulnerable
I will cry less
I will be in emotional pain less
I will never again sing along with any stupid sappy romantic songs,
I will never attend a church again
I will be tougher
stronger
maybe a little less kind
a little less empathetic. . .
but there are always prices to pay
and I can live with that one.
I will still be a nice person
just a little less.

[darkness0within]

Emotional pain is a hard thing to bare. Reading this I do have a sense of where you are at right now.

Hiding one's feelings is a natural response to certain situations in life.

As to God, or any other supreme being for that matter. I would see them as passive observers of life, like someone who keeps ant colonies in tanks. They watch as these ants scurry around doing what ants do. occasionally seeing the odd squabble or death within the tank. But the rest of the colony is getting on just fine so they (God, or whoever) are not particularly worried about it.

I've felt for a very long time that we are here to learn lessons throughout our life. there is always more to learn however old we might be, and some of these 'lessons' can be very hard, be it about the people who surround us, our environment, or ourselves, or a combination of all. The important thing to me personally is how I deal with what life throws at me through my life. Everyone has ups and downs through their lives. Some more than others that's for sure.

Thought provoking write again aims.

very well written my friend.