Post by moseley on Dec 28, 2020 1:11:34 GMT -6
I will leave you, so let me not lie
if I tell you some length of forever
despite death, emotions and hungers
but I don't want you to leave me
it is when I look at you, and I have
have many times, but this time,
was different, as every time is
but I am amazed, humbled and happy
I have been alone, I can be again
but I have not longed for company
in a quiet way that you cause
maybe unawares, maybe because
you are you and still, I am learning
more about me, because of you
should I profess tumbles and whirls
and ribbons and curls and confetti
and such contrivances that we seem
seem to make as to build something
which is not there
but this is, this is something I dare
to keep quiet with, long enough
to tend to how it feels, because it
it is not like I expected, or was told
or have seen so many times
awkward, stumbling and somewhat work
that work which I would long to do
but never understand, though I lie
I lie and profess to know how this feels
because so many times, I have made it
someone has made it, we have made it
forged it, gilded it into some monument
monumental structure that its shadow
smothers the living ends of our spirits
and somehow forcing through some feelings
and oh, feeling those feelings and shit feeling the feeling of those feelings
knowing that this is how it must have felt
this is how how it has to feel
I don't feel that, I can breath
and it feels good the air near you
should I ever feel home
should I ever feel at peace
it will be when I leave you
for those things I would lose
and I will not go easily
then again, it is something else
too, that I don't control the switch
when. it is on or off
if it will or will not
but with you, or alone
and I. alive and alive is much better
better when you didn't leave me
and I can see you and long to know
to feel and even understand
you also see me
and it is so wonderful
to be seen by you
if I tell you some length of forever
despite death, emotions and hungers
but I don't want you to leave me
it is when I look at you, and I have
have many times, but this time,
was different, as every time is
but I am amazed, humbled and happy
I have been alone, I can be again
but I have not longed for company
in a quiet way that you cause
maybe unawares, maybe because
you are you and still, I am learning
more about me, because of you
should I profess tumbles and whirls
and ribbons and curls and confetti
and such contrivances that we seem
seem to make as to build something
which is not there
but this is, this is something I dare
to keep quiet with, long enough
to tend to how it feels, because it
it is not like I expected, or was told
or have seen so many times
awkward, stumbling and somewhat work
that work which I would long to do
but never understand, though I lie
I lie and profess to know how this feels
because so many times, I have made it
someone has made it, we have made it
forged it, gilded it into some monument
monumental structure that its shadow
smothers the living ends of our spirits
and somehow forcing through some feelings
and oh, feeling those feelings and shit feeling the feeling of those feelings
knowing that this is how it must have felt
this is how how it has to feel
I don't feel that, I can breath
and it feels good the air near you
should I ever feel home
should I ever feel at peace
it will be when I leave you
for those things I would lose
and I will not go easily
then again, it is something else
too, that I don't control the switch
when. it is on or off
if it will or will not
but with you, or alone
and I. alive and alive is much better
better when you didn't leave me
and I can see you and long to know
to feel and even understand
you also see me
and it is so wonderful
to be seen by you
