the injury

[tolteclogic]

I've been hurt
the injury
wasn't slight
the wages
of war...
it is often
the things
we don't see
that can do us
the most harm
like a beer
where the cap
has been re-attached
or a drug especially
designed for you
gifted on a silver platter
character assassins
or death ~ game over
never look a gift horse
in the mouth or expect
something for nothing
every thing has a price
looking back over this
long and dusty trail
this trail that is our life
the life we each
individually live
it is amazing we survived
some of us stand out
more than others
Some of us must learn
things the hard way
i've done a little of both

[tolteclogic]

as if i could not see
or that my words
wouldn't matter
i stood firm
and my world
fell silent
in ridicule
and so the
journey was begun
the injury was for certain
but you would not be erased

[tolteclogic]

"When a summit of life is reached, when the bud unfolds and from the lesser the greater emerges, then, as Nietzsche says, 'One becomes Two,' and the greater figure, which one always was but which remained invisible, appears to the lesser personality with the force of a revelation."

"He who is truly and hopelessly little will always drag the revelation of the greater down to the level of his littleness, and will never understand that the day of judgement for his littleness has dawned. But the man who is inwardly great will know that the long expected friend of his soul, the immortal one, has now really come... a moment of deadliest peril!"
CG Jung


"Anyone fool hardy enough to proclaim publicly an inner
allegiance with an identity no one else believes in is
is simply asking for trouble they well deserve for sensless
lack of discretion. In words where the majority vote is
other wise cast the life of such a seek may be made very
unpleasant. That is only to be expected."
W Gray

[tolteclogic]

perception is 9 tenths of the law
after the smoke has cleared
once the sixies were dead
and buried... the beat goes
on and filters slowly across
this nation and the curious
become enlightened while
the nefarious are liberated
no longer misunderstood
into this soup we flow
free love pop rock
flower children innocent
until reality sets in...
while deep south bible belt
crushes any and all insurrections

[wistfuldragon]

There is a richness
fullness in your
phrases...

A simple yet
wondrous intelligence
that captivates the reader...

Word play mastertry...

[tolteclogic]

Thank You most sincerely Wistful Dragon

the wrong person

even in the dark
there can be
beauty in our
expression...
in real life
particularly from
a by gone era
in the age of wit
all that was required
was the sharpness
of a well turned
phrase to open
all manner of doors
yet as with Virgil
Voltaire
or Oscar Wilde
to exemplify
the voracity
of the two
extremes
there are limits
beyond which
no amount of
innate capacity
might go beyond
doing the impossible
is seldom popular
but for some of us
there is no other way
the dichotomy
in my own experience
has been such that
the manufatured
evidence will speak
for itself - i have
quite the colorful history
amid deep south
small minded repression
it is the stuff that great
poetry is made of...
it's been a long
and dusty trail and
the false expectations
built upon lies and deception
are for me alone to expose
in the broad light of day
there is no walking away
particularly now that
the game is afoot

taking on UNC Hospital
against Duke University
has once more cast me
into the spot light
under close scrutiny
in questions of character
essentially my word
against theirs
(even though
according to the
rules i did my due
diligence in satisfaction
of requirements
under the law)...
my life like clock work
has been a shooting
gallery like shooting
ducks in a barrel
having won the ultimate
battle in 1985 i did not
have the good sense
to leave well enough alone
and kept on fighting even
though for all practical
intents and purposes
the battle had been won
so many turning points
along the way
between
flying to Mexico
to study with
native shamen
and spending time
with Dan Millman at
his home in San Rafael
California across the
golden gate bridge
back home big trouble
was brewing and as
Dan would say why
don't you just move away?
because i thought that
i could win... silly double
standard back stabber
kangaroo justice
i was wrong...
and yes i had read
all of the signs and
had survived all the
covert character
assassinations
more or less intact
on the day i found the
owl's feathers that night
at exactly the stroke of
midnight walking out
the door of my aunt's
house i heard my
first ever screech owl
so close the sound
cut right through me
and putting two and
two together along
with my recent
precognitive dreams
i could see tremendous
changes on the horizon
those i had so recently
defeated would now
exact all the vengences
of hate and fury on
yet greater false
pretenses...
this time the injury
would require many
more years to heal


"Easy is the way down to the underworld: by night and
by day dark Dis's door stands open; but to withdraw
one's footsteps and to make a way out to the upper air
that's the task, that is the labor."

Virgil

[tolteclogic]

in retrospect:


In The Dark

We can live in the dark
without a spark
And call this the light
We can live all our life
In obediance to ignorance
and call this divine
We can worship our own
intelligence and believe
that what we achieve
is worth the price
Who is at the helm?
We are a nation of fools
In a world spun out of control
In our bid for power
Without honor or humility
there is no impeccability
We neglect the totality
of the Self


This Burden

I did not ask for this burden
when one becomes two
In a moment
everything changes
that is when a teacher is needed
- chop wood carry water -
this is only the beginning
As the old Shaman will tell his
apprentice
'I am sorry that you have become
enlightened,
Now get back to work'
Waking up is nothing
living it free and undetected
in a world without vision
that is the challenge
How do you speak a laungage
that has no words?

~*~*~*~

Fear

All fear is death
make peace
the spirit
within
Ego
will not give up
the fight
step aside
one clear moment
there is no blame
plumb the depth
of your being
think outside
the box
let go
the identity
of opposites


Epitaph

And any last brave words
In the face of death
It is a good day to die
We have the capacity not
To think about
Those things we find
Fearful like our
Own Mortality
Let alone that of others
Stand up
There is no dress rehearsal
Live fully in the moment
Future and past have no presence


The Agreement

The Policy
of hate
and control
polarize factions
destroy obfuscate
Stop the mystic mind
before it can multiply
what isn't us
must be them
kill all heretics
recognize the danger
don't invite it in
be silent
don't disrupt the apple cart
make waves and
pay the consequence
remain myopic and all is well
don't distrub dead religion
fear is the cause
of all consequence
open the portals of clarity
bless our petty tyrants


Outside

Stepping outside the picture
Running with the peaceful wild
Nature
The beauty of no structure
Is itself a way of knowing
Knowing that is not structured
As we know it
As we are in our conditioned Lives


The Path of Awakening

What is this path?
Shed your skin
Get out of danger
Release the damage
Dissolve stagnate energy
Know when to advance the fire
Transmute accumilated mundanity
once it has congealed
It is a mystery
this medicinal energy
intense effort
prompt action is required


Inside Out

If we are constant within change
like the Sun which remains
bright even in secret at night
not only upon it's rising
then contentment is supreme
without the weeds of desire
clogging the portal of awareness
Blind allegiance selfish and uncaring
will never rise up to the heights
Gradual development is the surest way
where as prompt delivery
gained in haste is soon wasted
If you know the firing process
for the gold elixer of illumination
then you have the quality of humilty
with great power in virtue
This is the Spirit of Tao
not detached but engaged on principle




Beneath Obstructed
Nov. 08, 2003

they felt they were justifed
in burning me at the stake
going through the fire
getting to the other side
being celibate all those years
not knowing what this might bring
I had become enlightened
soon to be crucified
beneath obstruction
Carl Jung did say
it is "a moment of deadliest peril!"
"this immortal" capacity
we have within
it is in the voice of sages
silent as thunder
discredit me
rob me of my good name
I can see the image you would create
a lie built upon obstruction


The Mind of Tao

To active the Mind of Tao
dissolve the human Mind
Day by day
Mundane energy wanes
Gradually
Celestial Energy grows
Ture Mind
Building the foundation
There is White within Black
Male within Female
One must use the Bellows
Self-refinement
Requires the True Lead
The Four Signs combine
The Five Elements
Are One Energy
The Three Treasures
Return to One
At the Edge of the Universe
Yin and Yang Merge
Unified Energy
Absolutely Open Nothingness
The State before Birth
Clear and Free
Round and bright
Unfixed to Form or Void
The Gold Elixir Burns
With Illumination
At the Heart
Of Heaven and Earth

[wistfuldragon]

With Illumination
At the Heart
Of Heaven and Earth****CLEVELAND****

As with the rest...wonderful...you've a way bout you...a good way...

[anirbas]

perception is 9 tenths of the law
after the smoke has cleared
once the sixties were dead
and buried... the beat goes
on and filters slowly across
this nation and the curious
become enlightened while
the nefarious are liberated
no longer misunderstood
into this soup we flow
free love pop rock
flower children innocent
until reality sets in...
while deep south bible belt
crushes any and all insurrections

~Tolteclogic.


*CLAP!CLAP!CLAP!CLAP!CLAP!*

[tolteclogic]

Immersed in the wonder
of the Tao one can
deal with what ever life
brings you...

Thanks Sabrina, occassionally
these theads do end up
somewhere after all, deeply
indebted to you and David
for creating this safe
haven for free and open
expression...
in spirit
Cleveland

[tolteclogic]

it is past time to run the gauntlet
this obstacle course where
the law of cyclical returns
dominates the flow of events
what goes around comes around
sometimes the best
response is to adapt...
all that recent back stabbing
turns in on it self...
it is time to move into
a situation that is more
harmonious with one's
own true nature
we should never
have to sacrifice well being
just to keep the peace
that which augures well
is this innate capacity
for energetic enthusiasm
being receptive and
ready to travel light
ready willing and able
to greet the expected
don't fight the inevitable
tides of emotion
this great wave
that is sweeping
over you...
arrive at a higher level
of experience and
functioning - good
fortune on the horizon
generational tides
monthly cycles of
invisible currents
an unpredictable flood
brings about cleansing

time to branch out
take a calculated risk
examine the present
with an eye to the future
be the axis of production
busy as the day is long
goal oriented and practical
a joyful experience to
contribute so much
that is so tangible
where as the recent past
may have been
a glamorous illusion
take a moment
for objective analysis
do the results align
with personal objectives
perhaps fulfillment
can be found
in one common vision
a foundation galvanized
in some communal effort
resolve never again
to entrust your wellfare
to someone who
doesn't appreciate you
move beyond ever
letting yourself
be treated
this way again
How could you have
invested so much
of yourself for
so little return?
could it be, unconsciously
you don't give yourself
the approval you need?
learn to recognize
your own self worth
your value your gifts
learn to adapt
the best methods
of those who have
gone before
why re-invent
the wheel?
draw inspiration
and instruction
pinpoint attainable
goals adopt proven
methods by good
example, enjoy
the benefits
of successs
project confidence
as your natural state
without waiting for
acknowledgement
or approval soon
enough blessing
after blessing
will arrive...
exceptional
circumstances
surround you,
the natural result
of pure motives
and hard work

[tolteclogic]

we learn we love
we live we bleed
and then when
our time is up
we leave...