Post by aims on Sept 9, 2018 22:15:59 GMT -6
With me,
there is no such thing as giving someone a chance,
because if I do not feel at least a small initial spark of attraction
none ever develops later,
I never become attracted to someone I wasn't attracted to before,
believe me
I wish things worked that way for me
God knows I've tried to make it work that way
tried to pray for God to make it work that way
tried to just be open to it working that way for me
I have approached it from every angle
and every time it was a miserable failure
that left someone hurting and me self-loathing
so much so, that I refuse to ever try that again.
Simply put
If I don't want you
I will never want you.
Granted,
attreaction is not all of the equation
but I'm afraid,
for me,
it must be part of the equation;
but if I want you and I like or love who you are. . .
I am steadfast,
unless,
like my last girlfriend,
you play emotional yo yo with my heart,
then I can let you go,
with much sadness in my heart.
