When I Wake in the Night

[aims]

When I see her
I am overflowing with my passionate desire for her for days afterward
but then I will wake in the night with her on my mind
and something in me will remind me
how she'd never want me
and might even freak out if she
knoew of my feelings for her
if she read my poems and knew they were about her,
she might feel a need to be cool toward me
so as not to encourage my feelings
these are thoughts or fears
that harrass my poor heart in the middle of the night,
after which I try for any number of days
to keep my mind busy with other things
because those thoughts, those fears make my heart ache
I know I cannot have her
but I don't need to think about how much she wouldn't want me,
it makes me weep and ache.

[anirbas]

Deep and sad as waking from a good dream you can't quite remember...

For what it's worth, if I were the witch I've been called most of my life, I'd zap her with a "love our Amy" spell.

[darkness0within]

I agree with anirbas aims. Deep and sad is a good way to put it. However it also seems to be that eternal battle between head and heart going on here.

Your sadness is eloquently put my friend.