She Asked for Help

[anirbas]

Sonya Massey turns
in her grave guilty of one
thing in this nation-
Blackness in America
a condemnation it seems

Say her name Sonya
Say her name Sonya Massey
She was a mother
She was someone's own daughter
She asked for help not death

Gunned down in her home
for calling for assistance
A supreme mistake
Shot by a creepy white knight
with a silver shield and gun

Say her name Sonya
Say her name Sonya Massey
She was a mother
She was someone's own daughter
She asked for help not death

[artolmaeus]

Every day, I see humanity going senseless, as if what holds it together is dissolving into a mist of entropy. I just don't watch the news, it is all too much. I wish I could say that being aware of this and seeing the video would have helped. Nothing of that exchange made sense. I could not see where the woman was threatening, it seemed like the police were dismissive of her saying she was afraid of an intruder. To be a police man, to many who wear the badge, it means an oath, something higher than just a job. However, I feel it is a reflection of something like where shit rolls downhill and this police officer is the action end of a system far past broken. It has been devolving for a very long time. I have family from South Africa, we all felt Biko was a hero, not for his people, and people who stand up for what is earnestly right fall before what is wrong. The list is exhaustive. Empathy, compassion and sympathy that would let us see things as they are, seems to be overwhelmed by some perverted sense of perfection. Even the God of the Bible was honest in the first of the ten commandments in saying, have no other gods before me, for I am a jealous God. We are all falable and something is really wrong in many of the minds of those in power that they seem to think "not me". I have heard it said that give a person, power, entitlement or even some position of authority, and you will see the truth of what they are. I have always chose to be an ancillary gear but those who seem to be running the primary gear, should not. You can look at that I dividual, or the institution of a "police" force. The very thing that all law seems to want to do is to create order and prevent anarchy and yet, the ways law gets carried out seems to give birth to an unchecked anarchy. It is and has always been a cancer, but now, it has metastisized into something unavoidable and it has poisoned humanity beyond repair. There never has been a safe place or a safe world. Everything is too delicate and needs care, not force an laws against imperfection will never achieve perfection, there has to be a better way, and, I reference the Bible where in the beginning it clearly tells a reader that all things are flawed and draws an end, which clearly says God cuts the time of humanity short before it extinguishes itself. This police officer is a flawed human being, so was this woman, the difference being stark, she needed help,she asked for help, and no, she was not helped. Nir, this was a right writ. Maybe if there is a silver lining, it is that maybe we really cannot help ourselves, but maybe if we all could help each other, things would get better. This policeman needed help, long ago, and he too, did not get it, Sonya needed help, and I doubt no one ever did, ever, and I feel, that we don't have any inclination, as a whole, to see individuals as ourselves. Again, I look to a Bible verse that says "love thy neighbor as thyself" and I think it has a good intention but is fucked up because it assumes we love ourselves in a good way and how far we think we have come in all the advancements and yet we have abandoned the most essential things and made them words, the bullets of label guns and made them into ideas and for that, we have constructed a monstrosity for which the true meaning of life was meant to explore, that being the work of love and understanding as some collective sense of what is right kills by some subjective interpretation that if history has taught us anything that we are more wrong than right and if we are to do anything, making right by eliminating what is wrong is not the best step, no one ever stopped to ask, is there a better way, power when given to people seems to pervert and give a sense of something no one is entitled to. For this, I have no answer, I cannot cast a stone, I cannot judge, and, in the past, I have, and I was horribly wrong, if I do have an answer, no one would hear it and it seems that we all do, at some level, know as the selfish seem to gain, the selfless suffer for it all, we don't even know what the word we use for love really portends to and we all feel we are right in our own reason. It is a mad world and in just one life wasted like this, I stop, I cry and I mourn, because in some way, I can see where I have been both people in this story and am no better off for that revelation, though, I feel, I want to be, better. It is such senseless shit like this that makes me wonder if I or we, even can. What sin hath the wolf who takes the fawn, because it is easier food? What happens when there are no more fawns to eat? The tragedy of Easter Island or a forest filled with wolves, eat each other to extinction and leave maybe some enigmatic monument to say they were there. The history of Roanoke now seems to be that they were not killed but they all went their separate ways...no man is an island. Even tall trees prevent small trees from thriving by no intentional means that we can discern. If we are any more advanced than trees that we have some power through our intentions, how have we really, ever, shown it. It seems the few people who have were killed by the people who have not, can not or will not, bother.

[artolmaeus]

SONYA MASSEY!!!

[artolmaeus]

sonya massey.....

[anirbas]

I saw the video before it disappeared. It struck me. It struck me hard. That big, uncouth idiot had no reason or right to fire on the poor woman. None. But, she knew. She knew he was there to kill her. That's why she rebuked him in the name of Jesus, before he shot her in the face. I am crying, again, thinking on it. And angry as hell about it. She knew. She knew he was there to kill her. "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus."